The Paradox

What is this dilemma, for sure I cannot say. Conflicting emotions now define me, they are here to stay.

Khushbakht Vaka November 26, 2013
I am baffled, oh people! I am perplexed,

I am strong one minute and weak the next,

 

I adore my milieu; furtively my hinterland do I detest,

I am at peace with myself, only to be hit by unrest,

 

Perseverance drives me; fatigue compels me to withdraw,

I seek perfection, though my eyes only see flaw,

 

I long for affection; I have just hate to offer,

I desire harmony; except with no one can I concur,

 

I yearn for the joy of life; but I want death to set me free,

I wish to face all odds; yet there is a strong urge to flee,

 

I thirst for my jovial side; still the bitterness does not leave,

My heart wants to trust again; nevertheless it fears deceit,

 

What this dilemma is, oh people, for sure I cannot say,

Conflicting emotions now define me; they are here to stay,

 

What is this irony? Why am I withheld by this stumbling block?

Can someone tell me? How do I get rid of this paradox?
WRITTEN BY:
Khushbakht Vaka An accountant and auditor by profession, Khushbakht’s interests include reading and writing. She is also a member of Women’s Action Forum (WAF).
The views expressed by the writer and the reader comments do not necassarily reflect the views and policies of the Express Tribune.

COMMENTS (15)

shireen | 10 years ago | Reply every body at some point or the other goes through what is said in this poem . its the most basic reality of life. The uncertainty of human nature.
Sonali Dhir | 10 years ago | Reply amazing!
Khushbakht Vaka | 10 years ago Thank you.
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